Today has already started, and I'm not too sure that it has started on the greatest note. I am in a considerably bad mood for some reason this morning. I don't know why, other than the whole training thing. I guess I'm also depressed. I have to go to Dam Neck today for a meeting, but I was supposed to go PT with Greg this morning. Obviously, that didn't happen because of the Dam Neck meeting. But I WANTED to PT this morning, need to because I'm starting to feel so out of shape. I will PT in the morning, but it just isn't the same.
I vented my frustrations this morning to Pam about the training revolution (devolution). I feel so put out and betrayed by everyone in my chain of command. I busted my butt so hard for this organization, and now I'm being tossed aside as though I'm nothing--perhaps a used up has-been. Maybe I am, and maybe that is why I'm in such a bad mood and have been so demotivated of late.
I think I'm going to ask Greg if he wants to go sailing tonight--an evening sail that could relax us some, maybe. I don't know if he will want to, considering tomorrow night is racing night and we are supposed to take the French Hen out to race. I believe Rich is supposed to be there, and Lee and Lauren. I'm hoping that Kelly will go, too, to be a buffer between Lauren and me. That's a story for my journal, not for the internet ;)
I don't really know what I can do to make myself feel any better today--spend the day at home with Greg, maybe? That would be assuming he wasn't off doing some project or something else. Who knows? But, maybe I can talk him into some down time just the two of us away from everyone and everything. Or at least as close to that as we can get. I'm still thinking a nice sailing trip.
Thursday I have a trip to Blackwater for a routine visit. I'm also supposed to go to a hail and farewell that day, but it's tough to be in two places at the same time. So, I've already told everyone that I wouldn't be at the hail and farewell because I have the Blackwater meeting, and also that they have to publish those things further in advance because I can't just up and change on Blackwater at the last minute.
All of that being said, I think I'm going to close for now and get ready to go to Dam Neck. I don't have to leave for a little while, but I should get all the stuff--including my thoughts--in order and ready to go.